Should have given up

Sat, 26 Jan 2008 17:26:01 GMT

EVERY THING IS DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111111111111111111111111111111111111twotwo two two two twotwo two twwwwwwwwwwwoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

wow

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 05:27:20 GMT

I miss having friends, even if I maybe only had 1 that I ever saw.

Oh my, almost deleted

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 22:46:03 GMT

Smilin liar makes me miss when I was civilian, I hate missing my old life because I think too much, I wish i could go back like 2 years and do a few things over again... oh

Zombie journal?! oh nos!

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 08:15:49 GMT

Im going to be honest, but I miss LJ. That may be lame but its true. But I miss a lot of things. I miss hair, i miss late nights, i miss lack of responsibility. I miss girls spending the night at my house, i miss people in general spending the night at my house.

I think this week im going to get a gas mask tattoo... i need a new tattoo, yes yes i know i need to get mine finished but i want to get that done where it started...

i dont know if i should get a really cartoony gasmask tattoo or a realistic one or inbetween (which im leaning towards but cant get it on paper). For the third i wanted one of those retro looking female drawings, if i could explain that... which i cant... i keep thinking diner girl/roller girl... i dont know... that or i might just be lame and get an elder symbol.

I cant get enough of the faint lately... i feel like im gonna barf, and i should get some sleep...

someone save me, some how, some way, some time.

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 06:51:45 GMT

wow... livejournal

The End of this Trail

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 07:26:00 GMT

So, I feel that I might regret the decision I made, but it's the one I made and that's a bit more important. I'm leaving a lot behind but I am not too worried about being without it, no offense any one.

I'm afraid of what I could become or how I might end up.

I think the girl at rag stock thought I was pretty lame, told me I was buying girl pants, um, duh? I replied "yup".

I seem to be a size 9. Although I know size 11 girl pants are too short for me, but semi-close.

Listening to some freeze pop. I am all done at shinders too, sad. I wish I was still cute like freeze pop... maybe. I've just become so much more independant and what not :/ oh well.

Things feel unwell, at least it will all be changing soon.

get together?

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 19:36:04 GMT

I was thinking about having pretty much any one interested over on the 18th as a last get together before i leave.

Normally my get together things aren't super fun or anything but ill supply a stereo, a tv with video games or movies or something... depending on the weather maybe there is a chance of a small bon-fire-ish thing...

and cooties the board game...

i dont know... ill probably end up enjoying it but thinking it could have been better, i don't have a friend group i just have friends so things like this never work out. but oh well.

bring a friend or two? ideas? food/drink... ill try to supply at least some.

any way, Im thinking saturday the 18th... come whenever you want, well no, between noon and 9 i guess... maybe later depending, i guess i dont wanna be up all night because i might consider playing one last airsoft game the next day... no, maybe i wont ... but i dont care about not getting tons of sleep because it might help me get some sleep the night before shipping off to basic training because I will have to try to get to bed early (so i can wake up at like 4 or 5 in the morning, i forget how early they wanted us awake).

Id just like to at least see people before i leave because i wont be back for quite some time... and when I am back it will probably be short and the first few times ill mostly just be seeing family and what not...

so if nothing else you could probably at least stop by, and if it sucks say you need to get home for some reason and Ill be fine, just as long as i get to see some people.

so far i think my list is as follows (excluding assumptions):
Ozzy
Rachel
Annelise
Ashley

Here is a visual

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 18:20:01 GMT

jesus!

Sat, 29 Oct 2005 16:32:08 GMT

http://world.guns.ru/sniper/sn46-e.htm

That thing is a monster. Not one for looks, but "it will penetrate two walls of any modern APC at one kilometer range"

You could shoot someone beside an APC from the other side... just imagine when all the satalite imagery and what not can be sent to soldiers and predict where people are, you could get shot while in the middle of a building... You are standing in line in the middle of some huge building complex waiting for god only knows what... and suddenly you here the sound of concrete being blown apart and boom! your brains are gone... this is with that satalite stuff by the way... which i hear is only in testing... and really i dont know that it could find you in the middle of a building unless they had some good angles or a really good heat detecting mechanism to understand who you are... ok so maybe in the middle of a huge building would save you, but soldiers couldn't hide behind walls... not even behind smaller tanks... that's just crazy... and at 15.2mm round 0_o that's bigger then the "beast" .50 cal... so now people who bust a nut at that have to realize that is just a big sniper rifle, this is a tank killer... ok so a barret could lay waste to big trucks and stuff, maybe an APC... but still this is bigger... I guess by only 1/8th of an inch or so but that is quite the differnce considering no one seems to think the .45 is all that big and yet the .50 desert eagle is huge... that's a differnce of 1/20th of an inch and the 9mm is only like a bit more then 1/8th less then a .50 too I think... or maybe I am looking at this ruler wrong...

any way... this is a pretty large calibur rifle
http://world.guns.ru/sniper/sn67-e.htm

If I had money I would commision someone to make it... but if I had money first I would have to make a G11... If I don't have one by the time I get my sign on bonus I will have enough money when I get it and get one built... although it would have to be awesome...

That sucks that they gave up on it... wouldn't be suprised if it was because that it wouldn't take an m16 mag :P (partly, i think Ozzy explained a better reason) But I just read that it was started before east and west joined, and cancelled afterwards, so it might have had something to do with NATO and their ammunition rules...

If they kept working on it, I think pretty much all guns would start to follow that trend...

"When firing the full-auto, the housing moves back and forward during each shot, resulting in moderate rate of fire of some 600 round per minute. But, when firing the three-round bursts, second and third cartridges are feed and fired as soon as the chamber is ready for it, and third bullet leaves the barrel PRIOR to the moment when the housing becomes to its rearward position. This results in wery high rate of fire with three-shots bursts - ca. 2000 rounds per minute. Also, this results in that the actual recoil affects the rifle AFTER the last bullet in the burst is fired."

So if they modified it a bit so that Full-auto could work like 3 round burst... that would be insane... and the fact that the recoil affected the rifle AFTER... that's crazy... you could use 3 round burst and the grouping would be awesome...

"The cartridge propelled the bullet that weights 3.25 gramms, to the 930-960 meters per second."
M16A1: 945m/s (650-750 rounds per minute)
M16A2: 975m/s (800 rounds per minute [only 3 round burst])

So the G11 of friggin awesome... oh, and it had a 45-50round magazine, and the gun held 3 (one active, 2 reserve). I don't know how it stacks up to the G36 but it was lighter and at least 50% more accurate then the giant G3s. Ugh, so much down the drain...

sorry... sorry... i am just kind ofbored, i broke my radiator and now im testing it, running the system with out the computer on... i think i will shower and if it still hasn't leaked ill set every thing back up... Worst case scenario is I have to buy a new radiator but this time I'll get a 1x120mm with a shroud on it that comes with mounting stuff so I don't have to worry as much.

oh, and i went to a party last night and lived, but seriously, i hate it when parents let their kids throw these parties where they know 100% there are drugs and alcohol... i suppose if I had kids who were going to do those things id preffer they do it at home where it would be safer and they wouldnt end up in prison, but if i caught my kids doing that Id scare them to the point where they would be too busy liviing their life because they were too afraid i was gonna kill them to waste it high or drunk... ... a bit of an exageration of course but I don't think I would want my kids doing any of that (no offense to any one who does, but wouldn't you agree that if you had kids you'd preffer them not doing it and being safe and all that if you could choose?)

oh well... off to shower I go.

heh

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 21:02:15 GMT

I don't know if this was any good, but in one of those about me sections of a webpage i was writing how i need to practice rapping and then said "then you will all fear me, you'll see, I won't be in no spelling bee, Ill be the king, you'll see my bling, the crome on my case and the speakers pumping bass to the beat of the heat coming from my heat sink."

It rhymes... am I on the right track ozzy?

Vadik's first meal!

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 00:20:38 GMT

http://gallery.greatestjournal.com/thumbnails.php?album=350194

There are plenty of picturse of him eating (i think 14).

I was happy because he wasn't fussy he just went straight for it and began eating right away, so no live food for him, he should be fine with that though. If not, too bad because I don't want to put him in danger.

I got him a 100watt light bulb for heat and it's a night bulb, it is like 10 times darker then the black light, it is just a very faint red light which is cool because that way it is even darker and more heat... i put in a better thermometer and his hot side might be a tad hotter then ideal but it seems to be fine... I just unplugged the heating pad because the thermometer was reading 99F which is too warm (i put the probe on the ground so as to get the temp that the snake is closest to)... but i have a human heating pad under that which i can adjust if i need ot.. and i bet if i removed it the other heating pad wouldnt heat the place up as much (as right now its somewhat restricted because of the human heating pad)

but yeah... so today was awesome... petmart adult fuzzies (thats what i fed him) are 1.39 a piece... TC Reptiles sell about the same thing for .95 cents and are closer by i think, so im going there next time... we saw some of mine grown up and they get big, although we some some buremese (sp?) pythons that were bigger, and some anacondas that were probably still young and yet huge...

The guy who worked there had gross facial hair though... if he shaved he might have looked neat (he was very punkish with somewhat tight jeans that were rolled up to expose his tall boots and just had some tshirt on and stuff, but a gross full beard going on). So I didnt want to talk to him... but yeah, so now i know where to go for mice, not petco and that harmar place is just gross so im not going back there again.

now im giving the snake time to rest and digest... so in like 8-10 days ill feed him again, but not on a saturday because its harder to write on the calander on saturdays... and you arent supposed to feed them on a set schedule unless you are just farming them... well the story goes that feeding them regularly will get them to grow the fastest, but feeding them somewhat randomly simulates wild life because snakes feed more oppurunisticly (spelled that horribly) and I guess it has been shown that feeding them somewhat randomly increases their lifespan.

so yeah, thats my story, very exciting... oh one funny note, when i was done posting the pictures i was gonna check to see if i could link to the album as i did... well i logged out and went to the main page where my pictures were some of the newest, the other newest? Well they happened to be a girl and her guinea pig... i thought that was funny so i told her... maybe its not.. but i think it was.

Watch, now she complains that it was wrong to psot those pictures or to tell her or something and they get deleted or i get kicked of GJPix.com, that would be funny...

oh well, over and out.

Snake

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 23:57:17 GMT

(Posted from http://www.greatestjournal.com/users/downgrade/73220.html)
My Snake!

He is awesome in his own ways.

So that's what I have been getting all excited about.

LAME!

For those of you who don't know, day of defeat source is a fun video game and at the end of a round if you win you run around and attack the enemy who can't attack back, but if you kill all of them they don't respawn so its fun to kill your teamates if friendly fire is on... well they made it so even if it is on you can't hurt your teamates in that time!

So gay...

bah, ill play it now

I said this in my head while showering after having sung fett's vette in my head

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 21:00:04 GMT

so its to a similar beat to that in fett's vette

frodo in mordor
is antics make your head sore
and you know that you want more
because you know that you wont bore
but you know thats just old lore
but thats what i live fore
so dont piss me off dawg
or ill summon a balrog

kind of short but i laughed.

:P at you all

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 02:59:42 GMT

lets see if i can use GJ and forget you about this because GJ is way cooler then LJ and you people are all too lame to understand and convert other people like lame-os

damn it

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 02:51:13 GMT

well im stuck here until march 21st, how lame... I might try to get a differnt super easy job.. or i might just give plasma just often enough so i dont die... or i might move back to new hope with my mommy but i dont wanna.

fucking lame.

oh well...

life's a bitch i guess *shrugs*

and im going to MSI if I didn't already announce that.

What would I be?

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 02:03:14 GMT

I decided to figure out what rpg class i was... here is what I found out

*wizard*

the famed master of black magic.

"efficient"; funny-looking; intelligent

Fighter
66% Combativeness, 43% Sneakiness, 50% Intellect, 41% Spirituality

Good at hitting things and with a definite violent streak; you are a Fighter!
Fighters are the basic martial combatants in D&D. Their abilities and skills vary wildly between individuals, but they all share one thing in common… a definite preference for violence.
You're either really defensive, have an unhealthy fascination with sharp objects… or you just like hurting people. Either way, you should probably try and keep your cool. Being able to hack someone into pieces maybe a useful skill in most RPGs, but in real life it will just get you into trouble.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 67% on Combativeness

You scored higher than 50% on Sneakiness

You scored higher than 24% on Intellect

You scored higher than 45% on Spirituality

Link: The RPG Class Test written by MFlowers on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

very differnt so far...

Chemist
You scored 27% physical, 45% magic, 55% versatile, and 61% good!

Your talent lies in getting useful effects out of things you have with you. You have a decent understanding of first aid and can probably heal someone's wounds using some simple herbs. If you have any potions on you, you know how to make them work better than other people do. Enemies should watch out when you get your hands on volatile stuff...

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 14% on physical

You scored higher than 42% on mystical

You scored higher than 79% on versatile

You scored higher than 54% on good

Link: The Final Fantasy Job Class Test written by Artscrafter on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

9xnine Told me I would be a elf mage... but a tall elf as apposed to the idea of short elves

on another nerdy note, i think for a tattoo i should get this written some where
<img src="awesome%20tattoo">

i think im done for now

Blah

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 22:11:33 GMT

What am I going to do? I heard from my recruiter via a voice mail, I am to have a job booked by next week. But tomorrow is a commander's call (meet the recruiter in person) but tomorrow is one of 2 days that they NEED me at work, so I told her I couldnt make it, it is somewhat my fault and some what hers and mostly neither of our faults. She sent the notice to my mom's house so how would I have known? So Strike that partly my mom's fault and change it ... no, dont strike it, but add part my mom's fault, and change "neither" to "not any", because I could have called and seen if someone would trade a day with me, although there wouldnt be any one to.

You know, I wonder why i felt uncomfortable about it, but I think it's because some people don't learn from their mistakes.

why am I eating beer nuts? Why did i al most type eating as eeting? Why is why sitting here blinking when im responding to LJ comments? Hmm... lame...

hmm.

Bah!

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 19:10:09 GMT

So 3 burns and a bunch of annoying wire cuts and soldering crap that turned out to not be needed and i find out that one of my hard drives is the loudest parts of my computer, probably meaning its getting too old, but i cant afford a new one, at least not the new one i want.

damnit, i thought i posted this last night but i didnt.

Any way, I modded my power supply so now the fans in it are running at 5v, since my computer is water cooled all I need is enough air to cool the power supply itself..

heh, i got bored so now i have google desktop and i have it set up to automatically download some of the journals i read more often.

i wonder how often it downloads...

well any way, ... that is all

Bass for sale?

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 04:14:23 GMT

any one want or know of someone who would want to buy my bass for like $300

i need some cash so I can afford to have my earlobes reconstructed.

maybe i should just have them cut off, I dont think it would nearly as weird as people think it would... and it would be cheaper, but I do suppose Id rather put back the stuff between the hole in my lobe then remove it all together and then want my lobes back later.

you cant hug your children with nuclear arms.

speaking of money, i think that razor was a waste of cash, maybe i should have gotten one of those flat ones instead of my big fancy looking one, but it was fancy looking so i thought it would work well. It is probably just that I dont know how to use it... Im so dumb with money...

Ugh, MSI or Airsoft? MSI I could maybe go with a certain girl and then I dont have to worry about her spending the night interfering with other events, but saturday might be my last chance to play with the MAA and I already bought a 25 dollar bipod.

bah!

I always have trouble thinking up subjects.

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 17:47:44 GMT

what a fine weekend. Besides the fact that I havent been able to sleep so i feel really tired and stuff. But I had a good time.

Although it stinks that I found out I have a commanders call wednesday and that is one of the few days they NEED me to work this coming month.

I will try calling my recruiter again around 1:30 i guess.

but I have to pee...

i almost forgot about my macro... ... ok I got it down again, alt+., I thought it was ctrl+. but I was wrong. My eyes are sleepy, I need to pee and brush my teeth, and shower...

bye

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 06:34:10 GMT

You think your hot but your not/ ill cool you down with my water block/You think your like my cpu thats way over clocked/Ill show you man with my 120mm fan/ my big ass radiator just as loud as darth vader bein more useful then Nader/

seem seem sala beem/think yo ucan redeem that youve been seen to be shot by my laser beam?/ Like a terrorist at the barrel of my m4 yove been shot in the head and layin on the floor takin up space as an eye sore/ You want more?/ I get a monster kill, all up in yo grill/ whats the deal?/ i get a head shot and your like wot? and im all "lol" with ma' knife in yo face as we race to get a ludacris kill!

i download faster then you can spit/you're havin a fit while i sit and crack at your high ass ping/you see i cant sing/ im too stupid for that thing/ so i tell you how my computer owns yours/you cant get this shit in stores/ so you download mp3s beause you can see what you need to be the one and only master being/

haha, oh my god... any comments on what i fucked up and how i can fix it?

... yeah, i should stop trying, or try more because its fun.

oh my word

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 05:57:06 GMT

i dont know how to rap... about computers...

if i ever become a rapper i already chose my rap name... MC EIDE

oh well

Attention store customers

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 05:33:05 GMT

Jigaboo

that is all

QuakeMaster

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 04:02:24 GMT

i want to play CSS agaisnt steven hawking.

something fun.

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 21:09:56 GMT

almost sadly i want the danger doom cd

www.myspace.com/dangerdoom and you can hear the whole cd i think.

rapping about adult swim cartoons makes me need it. comes out next tuesday... ill pick it up sometime that week at best buy if they have it.